You know, us bloggers, or anyone on FB really, can be who we want to be, can pretend we’re someone who were not... and in a world where we accept more & more interaction in our lives with people who we’ve never really met, who’s to say you is really you, and me is really me..
We’d put our best foot forward wouldn’t we...
I will show you the naked me. Well, not the real one- I’d scare you half to death , so I will leave that one till the end. Skull a drink, and have a look... just kidding, maybe another time
But, I was thinking, we can all put our best feet forward and no one would ever know.
So, I am going to tell you all my flaws. I am pretty sure you know my good bits. Here’s the bad....
I can get really grumpy.... really grumpy. Most of the time it has to do with food. Or lack there of. We never had to stop because the baby was hungry, or we had to change a nappy. No, in our family it is “we have to feed your mother”....
I am not always right! (sigh, cant even type it without cringing).. and I do NOT follow my own advice as much as I should. But I can admit I am wrong, and I do say I am sorry. Without the BUT.
I can be very judgemental (I am my own worst critic)
I can be too harsh (but at least I am honest)
I am way too emotional. Therefor too judgemental (as in “that’s just wrong-you can't do that!”)
I am not the healthiest person on earth (am probably too heavy, I drink too much- when the doctor asks if I drink more than 4 glasses of wine I have to ask... In an afternoon? A day? Surely not a week?
I am loud-you can hear me from a mile way (but at least you can hear me coming)
I sometimes lie in bed really dissapointed in myself because I feel I am a bad mother. Because I yelled at my kids, and it was more about me than them. And I can be loud-did I say that already?
My hubby is sooo good, he makes me feel less good, and I am afraid the kids love him more. I am the bad cop, he is the good one. As in the fun one, I am the consistent, reprimanding one... I know they need it, but still....
I go to bed too late. Every night. And then I feel tired during the day. And sigh, and huff and puff. Coffee is my friend...
And I am too messy... really! The only place that looks half decent is my sewing room. Then my kids!
I am NOT a laid back person and never will be (who always says ‘whatever-I don’t care’, because I do care). But-and it has to be said too- I am hardly ever stressed, I am never late, and I sleep like there is no tomorrow...
I struggle with needy people. Not the ones who NEED and deserve help. But the ones who need to hear how good they are, how fabulous they are. How they perfect they are.Because you know what? I dont think they are... Get real, nobody is...
I am sure there will have to be a take 2, this is what I came up now, in 10 minutes. If I look at it for longer, I might edit. So, if you still read my blog after this one, stay tuned for the follow up ;P
xx Ilja
6 comments:
And every word is why I love you! Kindred spirits ... you could have been writing about ME!!! xxx
Thanks for sharing the worst of you, your honesty and frankness has made me feel a little less bad about the worst of me :)
It all sounds pretty normal to me! I don't think anyone thinks you're perfect, and in the short time I've been reading your blog and stalking your FB page (lol) I don't feel you've put on a facade either. You're you. Nobody is perfect. Everyone has their flaws. I reckon I could give you a run for your money as the grumpy mother. At the end of the day it's important to embrace who you are and if you feel you need to change something, well then that's something you can work towards. I also used to drink a bit too much, so now I don't drink at all. Don't feel you have to plaster everything about yourself on your blog, we're all entitled to our privacy and that includes you. I'm sure everyone still thinks you're pretty wonderful. Your flaws aren't that bad, lol! xxx
I love this, Ilja. You sound perfectly normal (and a LOT like me, except the not-stressed bit!!).
You've inspired me to do one on my own (poor, neglected) blog. Maybe even TONIGHT! :)
Thank you..... and Nadia, I can assure you there's plenty I keep to myself, I only share what I am comfortable sharing. Plus I am very aware this is posted to my business page also!
I write about things that are current to me, however silly or meaningful, and the topic of 'pretending' came up. Hence my post. I think sometimes it helps to hear other people say out loud they're not perfect, because we're often weighed down by what we feel is expected of us... but that's getting off topic.... xx
Oh Wow Ilja! Its so nice and refreshing to hear that honesty. And nothing about you sounds bad to me! I totally understand everything you said! My first fault to list would be that I am too scared of being judged to write a list of faults! Well done, a new respect from this em & femme fan xx
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